Pain

There are many degrees of pain in this fine world of ours but nothing compares to the pain you feel when you see your child in pain. The agony of being unable to make it go away and the helpless feeling that is all encompassing.

On Saturday, my sweet girl was spending the night with her best friend and on Sunday morning we received a call that she had had an accident. Instantly the adrenalin starts pumping and every fiber of my mommy body starts humming in reaction to the need to be with my child.

Upon reaching her, she looked so tiny sitting on the medical clinic's table. Her face mirroring her pain as well as trying to be brave. Yet the moment she sees me, her bravado slips away and she melts in to tears. I wrapped my arms around her and cuddled her as tightly as possible while listening to her best friend's mom tell me how she got her little pinky finger caught in the closet door as her friend tried to close it.

Her friend was unaware the her hand/finger was even there and thinking that it was a toy blocking the way, was pushing really hard to get the door closed. Thereby, nearly severing the tip of her finger. However, God is so good and the doctor was able to get it reattached and sewed 8 stitches and wrapped it up. I knew that the next couple days could be rough but once again God took care of her. The first night was the hardest. After all were in bed, I took my iPhone and crawled into bed with her. We played games on the phone until the pain meds kicked in and she was relaxed.

Two days later, we returned to the doctor for a bandage change as well as for them to see how it was healing. Bandage removal was hard because it was stuck to her finger. God gave us an awesome dr for this because he decided to try something that would minimize her pain. He used a glue-like adhesive which once applied was almost like a cast. It hardened and protects her finger therefore nearly eliminating her pain. She has not had a bit of pain meds since then.

But even through it all, I want her best friend's family to know that we love them!! I know that they feel such guilt especially now that she is unable to go to camp. But God isn't/wasn't surprised. Even if we had known that something like this was going to happen, I would have still allowed her to spend the night. I cannot protect them from every little thing that "might" or "will" happen. It was an accident!!! It just happened and even though, as her momma, I wish it had not ... it did. Please do not feel guilty!! We love you guys and will continue to entrust our daughter into your care. You are great parents and awesome people!!! XOXOXO